我知道自己需要的是什么。。。

我需要的
不是一餐免费晚餐，
而是一位会在我坐下前
为我拉椅子的绅士。。。

我需要的
不是一辆名牌贵车，
而是一位会在我上车后
为我扣上安全带的司机。。。

懂，不懂

有些事情
不是我不懂
只是我装着不懂。。。


有些事情
不是我装不懂
只是我不想要懂。。。

有些事情

不是我不想懂

只是懂了，也没有用。。。

a brand new ME

there r jz few more days left till the holiday...
even thru now is still not holiday yet,
even thru i m excited for the holiday,
but honestly i don like holidayS...


yeah~
holiday is fun n relaxing..
no stress,
no tension,
relax,
vacation,
bla bla blahh...


but for me,
holiday is jz a stop but not an end...
holiday is jz a warm up before a starting point...
moreover
there must be an important assignment for every holiday
which is PLAN A HOLIDAY PLAN...


okay
here's my plan >>
1st
A gotong-royong in desaria C-6-5..
2nd
A trip to Penang & Kedah wif my fellow "lollipop" gang!!
3rd
help my dad wif his website..
4th
find a job, my very first job ^^
5th
get a haircut, chg a hairstyle...
6th
set a new goal for my coming next Sem studies - "a brand new ME will be"


i m 
gonna let go everything wif a REFRESH button
gonna look far to acheive my goal wif a FORWARD button
gonna get myself a strong anti-"bubblegum virus" wif an INSTALL button


wait n c
A BRAND NEW ME is coming soon ~
arghhh
i will miss my frenz during the holiday,
all the best to everyone.. ^^

Soulmates ~

If you ask most people what the term soul mate means they would most likely reply that soul mates are two people who are destined to be together. This definition would suggest that there is only one person in the whole world that we are supposed to be joined to. Since it is a really big world this fact could depress some romantics out there since it would be unlikely that most of us would ever find this one specific person. Do you know that even soulmates can be differentiated in few types?

Companion Soulmates These are people that we encounter through their life. These are usually friends, teachers, mentors, or other people who have helped you achieving a life's goal or helped you out of a crisis. Twin Soulmates These types of soulmate are your closest friends or a person whom you really click with. According to those who believe in reincarnation, you have already met them in a past life, and in this life you are continuing the relationship. There is an emotional bond between these soulmates and each is able to sense the feelings of each other.. Twin Flame Soulmates This is the most popular type of soulmate. There is usually one twin flame soulmate for each of us. Twin flame soulmates have spent multiple lifetimes together in past lives. There is incredible chemistry and attraction towards each other. They "complete" each other and only few lucky people are able to find their twin flame soulmate. Twin flame soulmates, if separated, usually suffer enormous pain.

Love Economics Definition of Soulmates

Love Economics is our theory of love and dating. It is based on probabilities calculations, population statistics, and empirical research findings from Psychology, Sociology, Anthropology, and Psychiatry. Love Economics explains social interactions in economic terms, benefits and costs. Based on this theory, the person who gives you the highest benefit per cost ratio on this Earth is your soulmate. The benefit to cost ratio is called your soulmate ratio. Mathematically, the ratio is written as: soulmate ratio = total love benefit / total love cost

Your soulmate is the person who will maximize your soulmate ratio and vice versa. If another person exists that has the ability to give you a higher soulmate ratio than the person you are with, then the person you are with is not your soulmate. No one in this world, including being by yourself, could make you happier than being in love with your soulmate.  "True love is the love you share with your soulmate." Some people believe that a potential soulmate may be living halfway around the world. Based on the Love Economic Theory, the odds are against this happening due to cultural differences unless you just moved from there. Also, geographical distance will increase search, research, and maintenance costs. Unless one of you decides to take the risk to move to the other person's location, he/she is not your soulmate. The longer you are in love with your soulmate, the higher the soulmate ratio becomes. Better communication skills will emerge and you both will share more experiences resulting in more similarities. It is only after you finished the research phase and had been in love for many years can you determine if the person you are with is indeed your soulmate.  As a human, we are condemned to spend our lives searching for the other half, our soulmates.

1st time modeling

once a day,

i was asked to give a hand (or should i say a body) to my frenz with her assignment

she had to take some photos of a famous movie character in order to complete her assignment

so she had picked a character & i was asked to be the model of the Batwoman...

huhuuu...

actually it jz a normal photo modeling session for an assignment n its undercover

but yet i m still excited...

guess wat!!

its my very 1st experience of being a model

n of coz i m happy but a little nervous...

hooya

dats the day~!!

when i walked in the studio

everything except for the lights r well prepared...

costume ready

make up ready

camera ready.........

ok 

CUT THE CRAP,

GO GET CHANGE

& START POSING!!!

n so 

here's me in black wif a 5'' high heels ~

   

sometimes

i will wonder if THIS is really ME or not...

hahahaa.. XD

typical PISCES

Pisces ~


Personality:- Multiple contradictions, nervousness, forgetfulness, emotional, sentimental, rich imagination, self-deception- Have a kind heart, love to help people, willing to sacrifice themselves for others, in fact, just by helping others and to highlight their positive value- Inner vulnerability, lack of confidence, often as an excuse to escape their own, knowingly- Neptune Pisces guard, on behalf of the ideal, imagination, concentration, hesitation with hypocrisy

Pros: romantic, affectionate, kind hearted understanding, self-sacrifice is not selfish, with imagination, intuition and strong, tolerant, moderate and polite, easily trust others and do not suspicious

Cons: fantasy, lack of awareness of the danger, too emotional and sentimental, will not firm, lack of courage to face the reality, easily depress and hard to get away, easy to develop the habit of lying, poor at financial management, easily effects by the others, cowering, weak, indecisive, good talking, dare not refuse the request of others, lack of capacity to resist temptation

勇敢离开错的人

我一直告诉自己要有耐心，就像等水滚一样，差一度就是不行。
我愿意等，他会值得等。。。
希望有一天，会有一个这样的人，他让我知道，
不爱一个人就像意外一样，不知道什么时候会发生。。。

我该学习成长，

学习面对现实，

勇敢离开错的人。。。

一段成熟的感情绝不会今天很爱 明天就不那么爱了

一个真心爱妳的人 绝不会忍心看妳一再伤心落泪

一个懂得疼妳的人 绝不会为那些让他不愉快的事而选择放弃

一个在乎妳的人 绝不会无所谓妳的需求与对妳的疼爱

一个只爱自己的人 绝不会有资格拥有妳的爱

一个会将妳放在心上的人 绝不会不重视自己的种种承诺

一个不成熟的人 绝不会在爱情中让妳得到太多的快乐

许多人总会怨上天无法给自己一个好的伴侣

却总在不快乐的感情中 一天过着一天

等待着对方会为自己而改变 一再的期望也一再的失望直到绝望

为何不在当发现对像不对时 就应当早早最出决定

让不对的人离开 让对的人再来爱妳呢

当然刚开始相处时 确实需要些了解与磨合

但相处一段时间后 彼此知道对方有哪些不得碰触的点

却一再去伤害它 让妳绝望 那他一定不会有多么的爱妳

倘若对方能诚实说出自己已不再爱妳了

那就是真的不爱了 是真的没有了爱了

真爱与不爱间绝不会因任何事而有改变

爱就是爱 不爱就是不爱

对于不爱妳的人 更因当勇敢放弃 也别难过

妳并没有损失 损失的是他

妳只是离开一个不爱妳的人

而他却损失了一个很爱他的人…

farewell Mojo ^^

Dogs r my best frenz, apart from human...

i m regret...

for less playing wif my dogs...

coz i think its a bit leceh to wash hands all the time...

coz i m always busy when i get home...

although i less touching them,

but i do love them...

once a day,

one of my dog left...

Ｉ　ＭＩＳＳ　ＨＩＭ。。。

honestly,

i dono wat illness take u away,

but anyway,

i hope u will have a better life soon...

bless u, Mojo...

farewell, Mojo...

Soon after,

my little bro got another doggy..

a female doggy wif black fur

3months old baby dog

named Odie...

my bro like her very much,

suddenly he's like so responsible to dogs,

taking EXTRA care of them...

hahaha...

last but not least,

i wanna introduce my sis's dog - Juni

a nice name she has

which is given by ME... XD

a female dog wif dark brown fur

very skinny but she is hyperactive...

Everlasting Frenz ~

someone said dat 
"v r best frenz"...
someone said dat
"v r closed frenz"...
someone even said dat
"i m his real fren"...


but one day
my this BEST FREN, CLOSED FREN
is no longer here...
one word
DISAPPEARED...


why..??
i wish to know the ans...
i hope i can read ur mind...
i know
i understand
i accept...
v r jz frenz,
best frenz,
closed frenz...
nothing MORE!!
but frenz r not like dat,
no call,
no text,
no sounds,
more like mere acquaintances,
or even strangers...


i dono wat happened..
i dono wat leads to this..
i dono wat u r thinking...
i dono wat u wan...
i dono if everything is true...
i dono if u can be trusted...


"u went leaving nothing but a flaw,
u left nothing behind but a trace..."
i bear with it...
i don care about this anymore...
i don even need any explanation anymore,
although i m so eager to know everything clearly..


i jz wish dat v can act like nothing's happened,
i know it's hard,
coz there must be a gap,
but at least
v can still be FRENZ,
EVERLASTING FRENZ... :)

值得吗？

最近
功课很多。。。
烦恼更多。。。


hmmm。。。
该从哪说起呢？
erm。。。
先谢谢帮我set华文的慧敏吧！
其实我一向不爱打华文，
因为我华文不好，拼音更烂，
所以会打很慢。。。
事先说明，
若打错字，请多多包涵。。。


至于为什么我今天会用华文来写blog呢？
大家都一定很好奇。。。
是因为我不想某些人看我的blog。。。
而最好的是我不想他们看我的blog的人，
都不会华文的。。。
其一当然是我爸啦！
哈哈哈哈！！




人家说
“双鱼座是最浪漫，最感情丰富， 最注重爱情的。。。”
唉。。。
一旦堕入爱河的小双鱼我，要游回上岸简直就是难以登天！
最可怜的是每日还要XX双对，
最痛心的是有情人不能终成眷属，
最不甘心的是还没试过就放弃。。。
哪3 in 1呢？
这才是最痛心的。。


我哭了。。。T.T


可说是
第一次被伤，
第一次被甩，
第一次觉得不甘心。。。


不懂要讲自己笨还是傻
我竟然有过一个念头
就是为了他
放弃好多好多。。。
甚至家庭。
我知道我很不理智！
我的心很乱，
可是
我只知道
如果你说一声，
就算要我放弃一切，
我都不会介意。。。

我不介意被人的眼光，

更不介意家人的看法。。
可惜我就连这机会也没有。。:(


伤？
   一定会伤。。
痛？
   一定会痛。。


我并没有责怪他
我明白
我也尊重他的决定。。

我想通了

可是还是放不下。。

当朋友

是最好的选择
无忧虑地放弃，
也不必担心后果。。
我该谢谢你
帮我做了一最好的选择，
是最好的，
可是不是最想要的。。。

现在的我，还是这样：

~ 当我正在忙時，卻把手机開著，等著他的短讯。

~ 当他和別人要好時，我会感到吃不知其味。 

~  当我看到他笑時，我的嘴角会揚起一絲得意的笑。


我相信
时间可冲淡一切，
可是我还在等。。。
虽然我不敢肯定我所做的一切都是值得的。。。




最后
猜猜我用了多久的时间来写这篇blog...？
哈哈哈！！
是2个小时。。（最少）
hmmm...
我的华文好像还不错吗，
(只是有些字不会写就放XX)
我忽然间觉得自己在SPM华文拿B不是am gong的！！
(虽然我试过在月考fail我的华文)
嘻嘻！！

the best solution ~

"it's easy to fall in love to someone
but it's not easy to be together with him..."
finally i understand wat this REALLY means,
i don like THIS
but i think it's the BEST solution for everyone...


the story of mine,
it's like
1 boy & 1 gal finally met
but then
they jz realized that there is a glass between them
impacts occurs beneath the glass
lots to care about...
in a sentence :
"they can see each other
but cant touch each other..."


sounds SAD,
but i know it will over
i know that day will come
i will have ME back...


i din blame him,
i din mad on him,
i know it's not his fault...
i understand wat he is thinking about,
i understand wat he is worrying about,
i understand wat he is scaring about,
i agree n i will support his decision,
watever decision he made,
i m always with HIM...


i'm glad that v r still friends,
CLOSED friends,
BEST friends... :))

why ??

sometimes
i will think that i'm stupid 
coz i'm crying for ntg
ntg will chg no matter how hard i'm feeling,
ntg will chg no matter how sad i'm crying...


but
i cant lie to my heart
i cant hold my tears
i jz wanna CRY...


why ??
why i wan to cry?
why i will cry?


no point for keep on crying,
it will jz hurt ur eyes...
since ur heart was broken,
y broke ur eyes as well..??


DAMN him!!
come as a storm
n disappear like a wind,
leave ntg but a MESS...


why u wan to do this to me..??
y u still care as u duwan to care?
y u will worry as u don like to worry?
y u stay as u sooooo wanted to leave?


can u lie to me dat u DON CARE about me?
can u act as u WONT BE WORRY about me?
can u GO AWAY if u duwan to stay?


can i choose NOT TO MEET u at the very 1st time?
i wish i would never know u...
i wish i would never meet u... T.T

How to choose when there are only 2 pathways & both lead to dead ends..?

two pathways
how to choose ??

"RIGHT
leads to sadness,
suffering inside,
hurting outside,
bleeding in heart,
but at least
everyone is with u...


LEFT
leads to a tough way,
sometimes happy,
sometimes sad,
have to act;
have to hide,
but at least
someone is with u..."

whichever path i choose
i jz hope dat
it's WORTH...
hope i will never regret...

my goal, my ideal, my aspiration

when i was 8
i was asked about my ambition
n my answer for dat question is a DOCTOR...
( i dono y, but most probably is because dat is the only career dat i ever heard b4 dat time ) 


when i was 12
i was asked again for the same thing
n my answer dat time is a SCIENTIST
( hmmmm... i think it's because i like to messing things up n mixing things up n i really like Thomas Edison )


when i was 15
again the question had been asked
n i would like to say " i jz cant make up my mind "
n actually i was wishing dat i could don pick one
coz i know it will be stress n pressure


finally i reached 17
n now i was to choose wisely n think wisely
i know it's not the time to play anymore
i have to pick a road, a way, a journey
it's a hard decision...


too bad
i got too many interests
too many requests
examples


earn MORE, work LESS
rest MORE, do LESS
play MORE, sit LESS
out MORE, office LESS
freedom MORE, stress LESS


huhuuu...
sounds nice
& sounds IMPOSSIBLE
anyway
i still have to choose...


wif my previous result all along dis
i scored better in math n physics
compared to other subjects
i m not sure if there's any interest toward those subjects,
but they're my ability,
so i thinking of doin something related to dat...


on the other hand,
i like creating thingy
anything it is
as long as i like it
but i realize dat it will not be a smooth way for a designer
besides
it's not recommended by my parents,
somehow
i still wish to go on my artistic way...
* ( at least i think i m artistic myself )


as parents,
of coz they wish their children can be the best
examples
mostly parents would like their son/daughter to be
a doctor
a lawyer
or maybe an engineer....
1 word to describe - "Professional"


in this condition,
i came out wif a such good ambition, such perfect aspiration ...
i wish to be AN ARCHITECT !!


y architect?
" easy..... 
physics + math + art + professional = Architect "
wat a nice perfect combination / calculation / solution....


honestly
i m not sure if there's the correct way dat i had chosen
coz this job is obviously...
NOT work less
NOT do less
NOT sit less
NOT office less
NOT stress less **


no matter wat
i still have to carry on
i have to grow up n face the facts...
"nothing is perfect"
i have to understand dis phrase
so dat i can proceed to the next stage - the "mature" stage ...
well then
i have to ignore my 5 LESS principles
n grow up...


finally
SPM is over
a new life is coming ahead
a UNIVERSITY life...
glad dat i can skip form6
n architecture will be best mates since dat


very soon...
"my UNIVERSITY life"
had changed to
"my ARCHITECTURE life"
n from dat,
it changed to
"my ARCHI-TORTURE life"
[ quote from Wiiz Miin, 2010 ]

yes!!
it takes all my sweetdreams away everynite
coz i never get a soundly sleep...
it takes all my money away ( act is my parents' )
coz most of it i had spent it on site visit!!


however,
I DO NOT REGRET!!
I LOVE THIS COURSE SO MUCH!!


i never get a soundly sleep,
because i dream of the construction site which is not "soundly"...
i used up lots of money,
but i know i will get it back when i start work,
n it's worth to "buy" knowledges...


i know i will not regret
( i m not sure about the future,
coz no one knows wat will happen on the next day,
but i won regret at least for now )


"I LOVE MY COURSE
I LOVE MY ASSIGNMENTS
I LOVE MY COURSE MATES"
& dat is y i m here
studying Architectural Technology...


To be an Architect,
is my goal, my ideal, my aspiration...
Future architect rocksss !!!
XOXO